He Who Drowned the World – Review


Shelley Parker-Chan’s She Who Became the Sun was one of my favorite books I read back in 2021, and I was very excited to continue the final part of the Radiant King duology. My predictions for He Who Drowned the World was that it would kind of be like, as I joked to my friends, the “Hamilton Act 2” of the tragedy. Meaning basically, if the first book would be about a rise to power from humble beginnings through any means necessary, the second act would delve into the consequences of such decisions and the toll they would take on our main character—Zhu Yuanzhang, the Radiant King.

When I finished reading He Who Drowned the World, the sequel to She Who Became the sun, it definitely had aspects of tragedy, but it also surprised me with the exploration of new characters and angles of the world. Overall, An absolutely great and entertaining read. I don’t think it felt as unified to me as the first book, but it had a constant pace, lots of action and suffering and court intrigue. The story centers around Zhu and her goal to be “the Greatest,” but also explores the stories of 3 other main characters: Wang Baoxiang, the brother of the deposed Prince of Henan, Ouyang, the eunuch general bent on revenge, and Madam Zhang, a concubine-turned-queen desperate to hold onto what limited power she has by any means necessary.

The violence of their desires is also tied deeply to each character’s experience of gender and abjection, and it is through these experiences of gender that characters are drawn to or repulsed by each other. Zhu, assigned female at birth but living as a monk, a man and a now a king, moves like an impostor between worlds — someone stealing the name and identity of a dead brother, seen as an “ugly” woman, a small, misshapen, disabled man, her body is a site of curiosity and disgust, if not overlooked completely. Ouyang, the eunuch general, is someone from whom a male identity was violently wrenched from him when he was young, and despite his masculine skill in violence and war, is seen as less than human, an incomplete man, an impostor woman. Zhu and Ouyang, distant enemies in the first book, become brief, cautious companions in this one, where their shared painful eviction from respectable bodily and gender roles gives them each a tenuous connection that allows them both to see and be seen in each other before it is broken.

On the other end, Madam Zhang and Wang Baoxiang are characters who lean into and weaponize both their internal and constructed femininity. Madam Zhang because she has spent years honing her mask and using beauty and charms and plotting to maintain influence and power with the men in her life, despite the strain it puts on her internally. Baoxiang does so as a man derided all his life for being effeminate and flamboyant, who decides to fulfill everyone’s worst assumptions and expectations of him by leaning fully into what I can only call his Evil Gay Villain persona (despite being straight.). The pain of controlling or not being able to control being perceived, the policing of gender both internally and externally, is all over the story.

The desperation and intensity of all the characters is written very beautifully, with the melodrama and the indulgence you get from slash but curiously not directed towards a central romance or love interest. There are very queer moments of intimacy, love, and hate between characters, but the yearning, the desire, feels directed less towards the goal of a relationship and more towards a sense of personal wholeness and fulfillment.

Because of that I found the story to be very curiously asexually resonant. Sexuality and gender plays a main role in this story, and many sexual relationships are explored, but personal sexuality is treated as incidental in the main characters’ perspectives. It’s used as a tool of transaction or violence or routine physical satisfaction, it’s a desire observed and exploited in others, but desire itself is not dwelled on from the point of view of the characters. Despite, or perhaps because of this, the story feels free to indulge in other forms of intimacy and weird expressions that nonetheless are extremely emotionally and physically charged and erotic in their own exaggerated or subtle ways (especially, if you’re like me, and very attuned to finding freakreadings of works.) there’s always a tension and an eroticism in the extreme, sadistic power dynamics of a monarchic and military rule, the restrictiveness of a binary in a narrative making it all the more satisfying when characters rail against it or are exiled from it. Violence is ever-present in this book, and cruel betrayals are carried out with self-satisfied melodrama, but I feel it manages to be entertaining and dramatic while having a sense of empathy throughout.

I’m not familiar with the historical setting of 14th century China and the historical figures it’s loosely based on, but the story felt solid enough as a stand-alone stylized, fantastical work that I really enjoyed. Very fucked up queer people behaviors in this all around. I’m always a bit bummed when I see SWBTS kind of pigeonholed into just being a “sapphic representation” book since I feel that’s only one aspect of a much greater messily defined web of characters and their relationships to manhood, womanhood, the body and self, etc, so great to see that explored more in this book.

I can’t say it all completely worked for me, there’s some tonal differences I think in the earlier chapters that make it harder to get through since some parts, especially the chapters with Zhu and her company feel very more adventure episode that requires some fantastical suspension of disbelief, juxtaposed with the more political and intense relationship court concubine drama of Baoxiang’s perspective. I think the book is best read probably not all in one go, but bit by bit—it feels paced more like a TV show of old serial in that way (and if I recall correctly, the author directly cites Chinese dramas as an inspiration for the story)

The ending surprised me with the mood it ended on. Like I said earlier, I expected this book to be more of a “Hamilton Act 2,” in that I expected Zhu to experience personal loss (she does), lose herself in her ambitions (she does) and then ultimately succumb to them in an ultimate violent failure in trying to make all the past sacrifices worth it (she does not.). Rather than a grand conquest and ending, there is, instead, a shift in perspective and scale—an ending that in a way subtly seems to turn outward to look at the audience and imagine a future, many many reincarnations later, where those of the tragic ends might find their way to happiness some way or another, outside of the restrictions of the current world.

Thematically Frustrating, Undeniably Homoerotic – Becket (1964) as Historical Fanfic

At this time at the end of the year, I’ve recently fallen into the oddly specific hole of “The two historical movies from the 1960s about King Henry II of England’ dramas as portrayed by Peter O’Toole.” The first I’ve watched being The Lion in Winter (1968), one of my personal all-time favorites, as well as its predecessor, Becket (1964). What strikes me about both movies, both originally based on plays, is that while on the surface they are stories about history, they are ultimately about the experience of intense, overwhelming, destructive love. While The Lion in Winter is about the agony of Henry’s love and hate for a woman, Becket is about his agony of love and hate for the man he appointed to Archbishop—the titular Thomas Becket (Richard Burton) who, despite his friendship with Henry, chose to pursue the honor of God rather than that of the king. I want to eventually write about both films, but I’d like to start talking about Becket. It is flawed, frustrating, and honestly mediocre as a whole, a movie too inflated on its own aesthetics of pseudohistorical pomp without a strong thematic substance to hold it up. However, I personally found aspects of it compelling as a work in the annals of media about pathetic men defeated by sheer intensity and physicality of feelings. It’s something that overlaps with my thoughts on transformative fan works in the context of historical fiction, as well the interesting and sensual phenomenon that happens when you create a work that is, as people say, “so misogynist it loops back around to being gay.”

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The Rings of Power, Episodes 1-2: Dazzling, But With Very Little Magic

Going into this I had various questions on my mind: What would be the emotional focus? What unique visual language and designs would come out of this whopping budget of almost a billion dollars? What would they be drawing inspiration from, visually and narratively, to bring their story to life? After watching what has been released, my impression–so far–is that The Rings of Power is a show that wants to capture the dazzling scope of Tolkien’s worlds, but its reliance on visual shorthand to create emotional responses ends up feeling sadly derivative. There are indeed moments of genuine emotion and characterization that I find interesting and promising, but the overwrought style of the show seems more like it’s working against expressiveness than for it. 

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Some Thoughts on “Turning Red”

Anyways, for my birthday last month I belatedly got around to seeing Turning Red, the Pixar movie that got everyone on the timeline discussing their own middle school cringe and nostalgia, as well as the empowering benefits of representation for young teen girls and Asian diaspora folk. I had really enjoyed Domee Shi’s short “Bao” back when I first saw it before Incredibles 2, so I was curious to see how the movie would play out. It is certainly interesting to watch a movie like Turning Red at this time, when many other more mainstream works of “Asian Representation” have been released in the past few years, with all the subsequent discussion and discourse. As per usual, I have some Thoughts™ about this movie, especially how it resolves its central theme of “remaining true to one’s self and culture/family. It delivered a very well executed story about its intergenerational trauma and personal choice in expression and identity, but there were definitely areas of the story that felt interesting that it was touched on, but felt very much restrained by its dedication to being A Disney Production. Of course anything I watch, I can’t help but filter and interpret things through the lens of both my own thoughts and my own experiences, so I will do my best to put them down here.

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The Batman: Mature Themes, Juvenile Perspective

I’ve spent the past few months leading up to The Batman’s release being annoyed at the cyclical “Batman discourse” hot takes that comes up every time someone wants to sound clever or original. You’ve definitely seen them–the ones that usually go “Oh, if Batman really wanted to stop crime in the city why doesn’t he use his massive wealth to fund social services?” Or the thinkpiece threads that use the character of Batman as a weirdly-literal jumping off point for debating serious issues around real life policing, poverty, inequality, or rich people’s savior complexes. These are valuable discussion subjects, but I personally can get pretty tired of them being framed through discussions about a fictional character who dresses up as a bat to punch bad guys of of all things. Despite my Batman fatigue, I was pleasantly surprised, after seeing the new movie with my brother, that I still do in fact have Very Strong Batman Opinions after all! 

I am not exactly a Batman fan, but I have grown up reading a bunch of comics, both old classic Batmans and newer ones, and I’ve watched various Batman-related media at different times. I’ve also followed a lot of fanartists and fanwork involving Batman and various characters in the DC universe, and thus picked up on a variety of themes and depictions via osmosis. I’m aware that there is a rich and neverending fount of background lore discourse and nerd opinions in comics, but regardless of where I land on the pre-existing Batman opinions chart, I hope to express myself, my brain worms, and where they are coming from with as much truth and detail as I can. 

Anyways, The Batman has stunning cinematography and music, but its elevated, sophisticated visuals and attempts at presenting more mature themes are still framed in a very juvenile manner. To those who might say “well duh, it’s Batman, from the kids cartoons. What did you expect?” I must clarify that I say “juvenile” in a descriptive, not necessarily derogatory manner. There are many excellent stories that employ an intentionally childlike or simplified point of view to explore serious themes from a more stylized perspective, or to depict a journey of learning and growth into a more mature world. The fantastical nature of a character like Batman and the wondrously expressionist setting of Gotham City has a lot of thematic richness that can, and has, fit many different types of stories, from fun bouncy cartoons for children and darker, more complex stories for adults. Because of this, it is not the juvenility on its own that frustrates me about The Batman, but rather how it wraps itself in some incredible cinematic visual and auditory language and surface-level complexity without having anything really substantial underneath to hold it up. Like a little kid trying to wear an oversized, quality designer coat, it’s not that there isn’t necessarily anything wrong with each individual element. However, without proper tailoring, the combination will inherently feel off

(Contains spoilers!)

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Hamilton, Tragedy, and the age of “Non-Stop” Inspirational Clickbait

I was fortunate to be able to watch the musical in person for the first time in early 2020, pre-COVID, after years of being a fan of the soundtrack. While watching it on stage as well as during the official streamed version on Disney+, I was struck by how…tragic of a story it is, and not just because of the death of its titular character.  Both the character of Hamilton and the musical of Hamilton as a whole are saddled with a constant underlying anxiety surrounding mortality and fleeting existence. The main plot explores how Alexander deals with that anxiety and insecurity surrounding his lowly and purportedly shameful background (“bastard, immigrant, whoreson”) through striving to optimize his skills, taking advantage of the situations around him, overall chasing the American Dream of working hard in pursuit of establishing an idealized concept of timeless legacy and honor for himself and his name. It also explores the consequences and limitations of such individualistic pursuit, but in the very end the framing of the story circles all the way back around to becoming a praise and celebration for the very things that lead to his downfall in the first place. To me, Hamilton is a compelling tragedy that frames itself as inspirational, the way awful clickbait articles are written to be “inspirational” and “heartwarming” even as their very existence reveals something grievously wrong with the world.

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Interpretations of Disgust in Harada’s “Nii-Chan” (BL Minute)

I’d heard of manga artist Harada before amongst fujoshi-adjacent fandom, but the only other manga of theirs that I’d read was “One Room Angel,” which I enjoyed, but felt fairly light on the BL aspect. A few months ago I was curious to read one of their works that was more “BL”, and “Nii-Chan” was one of the first listed on Goodreads. Before reading it, I’d mostly heard whispers of “oooh Harada makes the super dark problematic manga ooooh” so I was curious to see how it measured up to the hype.


Overall–I loved this manga, and it was one of my favorite comics I ended up reading last year. It builds feelings of foreboding and release very well, the characters and plotlines are layered and complex and has a really psychological feel to it. Thematically, it tells a really interesting and thought-provoking story about the nature of deviancy and conformity in society. On a personal level, it hit upon a lot of things I find interesting in stylized stories that involve forgiveness and reconciliation, as well as about the nature of how people process feelings of disgust towards terrible actions, both in fiction and in reality. 

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leave it to the fujoshi (thoughts on media, representation, and indulgence)


Sometimes you see a take online that just really grabs you and elicits all sorts of emotions such as “amusement,” “offense,” and “fascination” and just, in the words of a friend, simple “hootin and hollering.” Anyways, even though nobody asked for it I really do feel the need to try and analyze my thoughts on this particular tweet, my own reaction to it, and the various reactions to it I’ve been seeing since I feel like it does land very squarely in the middle of various subjects and discussions I and others have been having for a while, about “good” vs. “bad” representation and the whole didactic vs. indulgent media thing.

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All the Books I Ended Up Reading in 2021

About halfway through the year I decided that “I really should read more books” and also because I had started working again, I needed interesting audio to occupy me as well as something to read on my phone while on my commute. This is not a sponsored post but I would like to give all my thanks to Libby, the library app on which I read all these books, some as ebooks and some as audiobooks. It’s really helped me out! 


I decided to write fairly short-ish reviews of all the books I completed, roughly in the order that I read them. No stars, because I always feel a bit weird choosing the amount of stars, but I did want to give my impressions and thoughts. It was a very interesting year with a lot of fantasy and scifi, but also a lot of contemporary and literary stuff as well, which was neat.

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Kwisatz Haderach, Princess Knight: Dune (2021)’s Shoujo Manga Vibes

So, I saw Dune for the first time a couple weeks ago, and long story short I now am determined to ride this sand brainworm (or brain sandworm?) where it takes me.  And where it is taking me is the fact that in my impressions, Dune, at least the 2021 movie, is incredibly reminiscent of shoujo manga.  Its sumptuous setting and costumes in a context of drama and intrigue, its depiction of ethereal, internal and abstract visions at peak emotional moments, the way it touched upon gender themes, all reminded me of touchstones I associate strongly with shoujo.  Even Timothée Chalamet’s broody but elegant period-drama appearance gives him the appearance of being straight out of a Moto Hagio or Riyoko Ikeda work, as I am not the first to point out. 

Still for those unfamiliar, I am aware that this might sound like kind of a strange connection, but please bear with me and let me explain my (extremely long and rambly)  train of associations:

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